The Disappearing Act

Hello my darlingsšŸ‘€
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=13cQ7b_kYvIc4NvNRk9sneGK745VwRFVL
Once upon a time during the course of the year, i lost my way somewhere. I do not know at which point I lost it, all I know is that when I finally got ahold of myself, i was roaming through a landscape of a mental desert. A place where I had no ideas, thoughts or any form of inspiration. 
For the first time in my life, I had not just an intellectual  dry patch but also a writerā€™s dry spell.  I had no idea of what to write and most importantly I had no abstract thought to fuel my writing.
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1oijGPkHTLmS_jmnCm356qcMAckD05jKB

If you were thinking these happened for just a few days, then you have no idea what Iā€™m talking about. It was a four months journey of just  simply existing and nothing else.
I unintentionally detached myself from the world in entirety but for what reason, I had no idea.
 I didnā€™t even have music to give me solace, just to tell you how serious my state of existing inertia was. It was like I watched the entire world through a safe distance, in a glass house far enough to be unbothered by all that was going on, but close enough to experience all that was in-front of me .
At those moments, I had a suffocating need to start all over, but for what exactly I wanted to start over, I had no idea.  I just knew I mentally needed a fresh start.
For anyone who knew me personally, it wouldnā€™t come as much of a surprise that I chose to go off the radar. Infact  this is so regular for me that people were either pissed that I had to do it so often or they were just used to the fact that I did it. 
But this time it was different,  I didnā€™t choose to go into hibernation,  I think hibernation chose me šŸ¤£.  
It was a weird but also beautiful period of my life but bouyy Iā€™m glad itā€™s over.
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=12hrwCRq3m_4-hrUB-EthJGRMWt3fFA9r
Iā€™m back now, I do not feel any different, yet I know somethings have changed but I just donā€™t know what it is for now.  The uncontrollable need to start all over isnā€™t completely gone, but Iā€™m currently working on starting over where it is mostly necessary, and so far, this place still remains my safe space.

Iā€™m back to posting , and as usual, I would appreciate active participation, if not for anything, but to keep me motivatedšŸ™ŒšŸ½.

You all know the drill, I will be dropping a song to go with my post. Iā€™m thinking something ominous enough to get across my point that I was a living mannequin for a while šŸŒš

Iā€™m back to trying to create different playlists as I promised, I will let you guys know when Itā€™s ready. 



Byeeeeeeeā¤ļøā¤ļø For now my darlingsšŸ‹

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