Differently wired

Hey Ninjas,  SONG PICK : BUY A HEART BY Nicki Minaj and Meek Mill . I am here again in a sorry attempt to turn this into a two-day writing streak, and hopefully, it will get my creative writing juices flowing. I called it a sorry attempt because I have not come up with a topic to write about, so I am just here to ramble on about the things I have been up to while I have been away. I changed the font there for a moment, but I assure you it will only be a temporary fix unless I fall in love with the new font. Then well, in that case, I  would like to welcome you all to a new era:) (just kidding, I hope) Anyway, while I was away, sometime in mid-last year, I decided to embark on a spiritual journey. It was not necessarily the type of spiritual journey my mother would recommend, but I know that it was both a journey and spiritual for me nonetheless. During this journey, the whole purpose of it was to gain back control of my life. For a moment, it felt like it was spiraling out of control.

 Hey,  I do not think I know how to start here anymore. It has been quite a long time since I wrote from my self accustomed safe place. I would admit there is a melanchonious vibe to this whole post or should I say nostalgia. ( I am not sure melanchonious is even a word, but I do hope you all understand what I am getting at) I had no plans to write here today, absolutely no plans at all, yet here I am.  I had just decided to turn on my laptop, and maybe write a new chapter for my book which I have been haphazardly working on lately, if I am being entirely honest. (I have kind of been feeling strange lately ) Just while I was surfing through the net, I somehow managed to find myself here. I saw the last time I made a post was on my birthday last year. I also saw that I had made an apology post before that about how I would be more consistent here, but typing this now with Finding hope serenading the air around me talking about how he wished he was more than friends, I realize that I hav